Some changes.
Things are moving very quickly for me now. There is a sense of urgency in all my projects I’ve been working on that wasn’t there before. Listlessness is at an end.
I’m not sure how this change came about, but it was definitely a mix of several things. I’m not ready to explain it, because I can’t. Maybe I will one day.
I have so many things I want to do, and the future is uncertain as always. If I can work on these things that I feel are important, and also bring me joy, then why postpone their creation?
Also, I made a pretty big decision a couple weeks ago. In this decision’s aftermath, there has been a sense of peace that I rarely feel. It is similar to when I decided to move to Baltimore one year before I actually did. As soon as I made that decision, it always felt exactly like the right thing to do, and I never second guessed it. It is the same with this decision. Also, I’m running into little things everywhere that reinforce that it was the right decision. It is very calming. I feel like it is a permanent change to the makeup of my character.