Loss of focus

I am working on something, deep in the process. Suddenly, I hit a wall and I need to look up an answer via online documentation, Stack Overflow, etc. I switch apps to my browser, and there it is, all the tabs I had open before. “Oh yeah, that was a neat article I should finish reading that. Oh, this link looks interesting..”

Five minutes later I totally forgot why I left my code editor, and go back to it. “Oh right, I need to look up X.” I switch apps to my browser. Sometimes the cycle repeats.

Does this happen to anyone else? I just realized the breakdown is at that moment when you see all your old tabs. What I need is a hotkey to open a new browser window and just use that. I could also close all tabs before leaving the browser, but sometimes I need to go back and reference something.

Either way, it is infuriating.

Lunch out, and other things

Went to lunch with Sven from Forge today. Had some really good conversation on home design, designing for resiliency, etc. A kindred spirit!

Tonight I’m really wanting to finish some debugging with Nickelpinch to get it to v1.0. Seriously and for reals, it is only 2 hrs left.

Once it’s done I’m am not sure how I will proceed with it. I know I should revamp nickelpinch.org and update screenshots, etc. That all sounds horrible though.

Documentation is needed. A more accurate and concise “Why this could be helpful for you”.

I’ll post an update to see what I actually end up doing.

New Day

I’m going to be posting more on here again. Really pumped for work today! I want today to have epic levels of progress.

Other random thing, I have a tough time determining if what I am writing is a ‘Standard’ post in WordPress, or just a ‘Status’ post. I’ll just do whatever I think is best. OOh, and now I see the ‘Aside’ post type. So many options! Totally going to try them all out.

Highest of fives to everyone.

Jason

I’ve been trying for weeks to write this.

We were friends and at one time housemates, although we hadn’t been close really since he moved away. I thought about him all the time, but too busy to send him a note or call, although that would occasionally happen.

He ended his life a couple weeks ago.

I am angry and sad and it is not diminishing. I just can’t think about it. When I think of him I am forcing myself to think of a good memory with him; walks to monterey market, playing Magic, watching anime, him always being the scorekeeper and keeping things in gnumeric, his funny way of sitting and crossing his legs when on a couch or floor..

I’ve been reading a book on Stoicism the last couple months, and had been making a list of questions to ask my illustrious philosopher friend, to see what he thought. Now I can’t.

The “what if’s” just don’t stop. I don’t understand why. I do know I could have done more, and by more I mean anything at all.